once a blood red moon, twice i turn my back on you

i remember a time when blogging was familiar, and cathartic.

tonight.. im rediscovering some of that joy, but in a different light.

blogging used to mean, capturing the present, but tonight as i read entries of old, both friends and myself.. it brings a bit of joy, and accomplishment.. that we've all come a long way.. we've given up on some of our dreams.. we've faced setbacks.. but we've also made it this far.

some aspects of my life seem unfamiliar, some still ring true. it doesn't really matter because all we have is now.. and it's not like the past was always the correct path.

if we've deviated from what we were originally meant for, it's a sad thing.

but if we moved from things that were destroying us, it's a happy thing.

somewhere in between all of that.. the thing that pricks me the most is that i think i've been moving away from something i was originally meant for.

but what a great 2008 it's been. i started on the brink of adulthood with starting a job, i've been really blessed to keep it.. and do so many other great things like playing baybeats, recorded an EP, and still jamming with many more musicians.. and making new friends and meeting new people.

it's still a hard life, and figuring out who i am as an adult, but these little things, they make it easier, and perhaps even worth struggling for.