bones
bah! been quite lazy the past few days havent been doing my readings the past few days. so kinda going into tutorial classes a tad spaced out and worried. but i somehow managed to survive. man, being asian sure makes me uncomfortable. i dont feel uncomfortable with caucasians around me, but do they feel uncomfortable with me around them. and because i feel paranoid in that aspect, wouldnt it be better to just clam up during class? but it is an experience. i'm already having thoughts about my media research project, wot we could research on. wot makes a commercial radio song sell? prolly something along those lines.
in other news, my mobile phone plans have taken a setback. the people at yes!optus are very anal retentive. but i wont go into specifics.

tuesday's gone
that's a lynard skynard song =) shifting away from the great southern rock band of the seventies, my day began at ten. i snoozed for ten more minutes before prepping myself for school. i made my hair, i wonder if im doing it to look a certain way. i dont want to, its just that it looks unpresentable in the morning. oh well, i always have better things to think about. so well, had to collect my student status letter. with this hopefully i will be able to get a new mobile line and samsung t100. so then, lessons from 1130 till 1630. we watched run lola run for introduction to screen studies. i liked it. it was a good take on personifying the idea of random factors. you can make an infinte number of choices, but still have an infinte amount of random factors to screw your life up. see how powerless we are? yeah.. so well, the assignments and readings are piling up, but i still mull around. tad worried, but i hope to do well in the end. i met some new people today. all sporean, well, kind of. think one of them's just started living here. roland. he's the one. he's only seventeen! but looks older. just started playing guitar for over a year, but already he's shredding and forming bands. he likes a perfect circle too, as well as a host of other darker, gothic aggro-metal types. got to know him thru a guy called kevin who's a bit over-excited about things. and dosent exactly seem very open-minded. guess its just not my cuppa. and yeah, when roland and i were discussing guitars, a guy i've seen around joined us. jonathan another bassist / guitarist. trivia : he played guitar in soul satisfaction the winners of europa's battle of the bands. how awesome is that? well, great to have met you guys! gonna go out for dinner with housemate felix and neighbour wayne soon. yeh.. not cooking. i mean, how many times can you eat carbonara? gonna try cooking fish (salmon) terriyaki tomorrow i hope!!

the new hardware

sunday's about church right?
today i went to vist peivn's church. full gospel assembly - perth. it was a charismatic church. they had heated prayer before service. and the pastor was calling people down to join them. haha, it was a pleasant shock to me. i knew that i had stepped off into the deep end. the uncharted waters. going to a new church was a battle of dread and expectation of wot God could do. i was wrestling with my immature self, of trying to enter the courts of worship. i wished i didnt have the struggle of people looking. it was alright in sjsm, cuz well, they're all familiar faces. and well, it was a 'bout of pretty serious spiritual warfare. i dont know if i won or lost, but after the very good sermon, i was challenged that there were foundations in my life i needed to deconstruct so that i could build the foundation that God wants to establish his kingdom in.
key point : to be born again, or be truely filled with God, to grow and want more. you have to grow th kingdom of God within you. it dosen't just hit you like that. also, when you try to assimilate certain convictions God places in your heart, your flesh / carnal nature will rebel. i mean, these are you foundations at the start. so you need to break these down, so that the first seeds of God can be planted.

so well, the sermon was about entering the kingdom of God. so we had a rough look at our spiritual maturity. and we were given little examples of the level of maturity. i guess a good gauge might be how much you're allowing God to do in you, and how much you want him in your life.

and well, also. i dont know if i have to transfer my roots from sjsm to a new church. or grow new roots. you know.. can i just treat the church i choose here as a temporary thing. which gives to the temptation of non-commitment. haha, will prolly have to pray hard. at the end of the day, dont think its my call to really decide. so yeah.. i was just thinking about the guys back home. usually we hang out after church.. and well, thinking about it, makes me miss it. =)

biding time
have been downloading some videos. some fine catches with misteeq's scandalous and a live concert by a perfect circle (key find!) haha, i really do like that misteeq song. which was a suprise for me. the video was also pretty slick. i guess i got sentimental about zouk. also, watching a perfect circle made me reminice the two gigs i played with my dark star.

for a perfect circle fans, i have some great news, and their current line up is :
guitars and vox : billy howerdell
vox : maynard james keenan (tool)
guitars : james iha (ex-smashing pumpkins)
bass : twiggy remirez / jeorgie white (ex-marylin manson)
drums : josh freesh

sitrep
where am i? *sigh* today, kinda came and wentl. if you wanna know wot perth's like. its pretty boring. its friday night! and .. i'm stuck here. know wot i mean? i miss you guys back home. but will this be my new home? anyhow, a good piece of news i heard just now, is that shaun is sessioning for my dark star whilst i'm away. in case you don't know, shaun's shoes are pretty big ones to fill..
in other news, i am surviving on gundam seed, but its only 15 more episodes before i run out. just installed counter-strike, and hopefully raven shield. they might help over these boring lulls.

closet star wars junkies
be careful of wot you do behind closed doors..
here

beth orton, i want to kiss your feet

i know i dont talk about her much, but i probably love her as much as i love sarah.

said this to marcus
it takes more muscles to frown than smile, but apathy needs no work at all.

because guys grow up
well well. guess i havent been blogging regularly, when i should! haha, but man.. life here in perth is a real drag. haha.. you just wanna bum and crash out. daymn, i'd better start working on my beer gut if i wanna make it to the beach without embaressment. *ahem* well well, the purpose of today's entry is to bring you up to date about one of my most exciting activities since stepping on asutralian soil. cooking!

recipie 1 : aglio olio. basically i tried to make this olive oil and garlic based sauce to toss with pasta, but i fried the garlic too long. plus the pasta was not thoroughly cooked. failure.

recipie 2 : pasta stir fry with beef. if only the beef wasn't so tough and had that strange beef taste. i'd have liked this. i'll try putting onions in the next time too. cut down on marinade. pass.

recipie 3 : pasta carbonara from a jar. i used carbonara sauce in a jar, so all i had to do was heat it over a saucepan. i added some pork sausages to it. and it was pretty darn good. but minus points for lack of original ingredients. pass.

sky diver
well, today was dad's last day in perth. he flew back in the afternoon. i'll miss him. now i'll miss everyone, cuz he was the last sporean link from home. now, i'm alone in that sense. i'll admit, there is a joy of liberation and freedom. but the chains of uncertainty still hold me back. i must pray, this strange journey that God has allowed me to tread upon. he has been patient, and i am grateful. pray for me, that i will not grow complacent. please pray.
school came and went. i didn't exactly make new friends yet. i wonder if they are essential. yeah, i am jaded. because all i wanna do is do well in school and increase my musical technicalities multi-fold. but i know that sounds so selfish. hsia ling is visiting peishan at the moment, and they kinda took me out for dinner. it's funny, cuz we never hung out much in spore. but oh well, it was fun nonetheless. we had pretty good conversation about various issues. spiritual stuff did pop up. i wonder if i'm rated for intelli-conversation. but that's just paranoia. today's thought might be : our paranoia might stifle us in the supernatural ways God can really manifest his power we've been in our normal world for far too long. God can be paranormal if he chooses to be. also, i found out hsia ling is an adrenaline junkie, and she has gone sky-diving with adrian "the yuenster". this news i never knew. but total respect for taking the leap.

the yuenster, leaping off into the unknown. still in awe. awe baby..

settle down - zwan
17 july, thursday
touched down in perth. thank you all who showed up at the airport. love you all loads! love you all even though you weren't at the airport too! =) thanks for all your prayers, well-wishes, gifts and friendship all these years! well, after touching down. dad and i took a cab to the new place :
56 Prescott Drive
Murdoch, WA 6150
Australia
18 july, friday
woke up. not used to cold. frost-bite on ass. went down to university with dad. signed up for units. pretty cool. toured the university more. didnt wanna look like a 'freshie fruitcake' on the first day. "excuse me, where's the ladies room..? i dont wanna go there, so i thought i'd ask.." yada yada. home. dinner with housemates at nearby asian cafe. dad paid. useful.
19 july, saturday
woke up. seat cold. mist when i breate out. took bus to perth city with dad. that is after cross-country walk to bus-stop. perth city is so-so fun. lots to see. but prolly can't sustain my interest for interest. mental note : must find decks and modulous bass!! took bus home. dropped by kardinya shopping centre to get misc. items. room now messy. dropped by singapore link event because housemate cheryline wanted free food. she's not glutton by the way. thought it'd be cool to meet folk, but i played it cool and acted aloof. met a geeky norweigian and even geekier sporean indian called ramesh. noticed some femail species. home. picked dad up. bought second hand stuff from dude called gerald. best deal of philips 2.1 600W speaker set with sub-woofer. went to eat chilli mussels with housemates cheryline, adrian and neighbour jessie. dropped by wayne's birthday party. who's also my neighbour. drank jessie's drink on behalf of her because wayne was being somewhat dickish forcing her to drink. but he was in that happy place. i didnt interfere on behalf of cheryline because i reckoned she was fiercer. still, he was a dick.
july 20, sunday
woke up. feet cold. bus to freemantle. b.fast of bacon, eggs, sausages, mushrooms, tomatos and toast. found record store. great. home. rearranged room. repaired a table. dinner with felix and jessie at a food court. peivn popped by after her flight! pleasant suprise. hung out, talked. checked her place out. jealous. home. shower. blogging.

times are a changin'
well, i'll be flying off to perth in about seven hours time. touching down and writing a new chapter in 12 hours time. how do i feel? dreamlike.. i can't believe it's happening. stuff that i thought, i got over, seem to be resurfacing as i question my actions and thoughts. but it's too late for a change of mind. destiny has been set in motion. i'll see you on the otherside

reunited and it feels so good
well, mom and sis are finally home after spending four weeks in canada. they were visiting jia hui, alan and baby josh. must say they really enjoyed themselves. and for dad and me, it was an experience of bachelorhood. don't know if that's supposed to be a good thing. =p well, we're only gonna spend one day as a family unit. cuz well, i still am gonna fly off to perth so that i can pursue an education. as the day draws nearer.. it's like facing an ultimatium, or death row. it's like, i dont wanna sleep, i wanna stay awake. for wotever reasons i dont know. like breathe more spore air, or meet more local friends online. or just not packing to give the illusion that the day is so far away. but i'm afraid of changes, 'cause i've built my life upon you. but time makes us bolder, children get older, and i'm gettin' older too.. either that, or the caffine hasn't worn off yet.