porno for pyros
i reckon that's one of the best band name's ive heard really. never really gotta chance to listen to perry ferrel, but i reckon i could start somewhere. anyhow, this isnt about them, i just needed an excuse for a title. so with that out of the way.. where do i really start? i'm thinking of taking a short break from blogging for awhile. strangely livejournal seems to be so much easier to update on. or mebbe there's nothing i especially feel like updating aboot. oh kay, i'm really swaying now. i do feel very distracted. like i need time away from the internet. if i don't type in here, don't be mad kay? i just don't feel very public of late. oh there's so much you don't see. i'm finally starting to feel a little in perth now. i think my life got messed with abit. dammit, don't you know there's a sphere of influence around all of us, and everything overlaps. so that sometimes that mess becomes my mess. i have no idea wot im talkin' about. not in exactly the best of moods. 'specially with livejournal. crazy thing's impacting me like it shouldnt. i dont know why im bothering so much about a stupid blog. screw this blog, there's nothing funny about it tonight. i have good mind to post this, but im not in a good mind. so i am. i really think i'll be laying off the blog for awhile. not to sort things out. i dont know wots there left to update about. i feel so sick tonight. with the way things have turned out. i just want to run away and never go home. dont wanna see your faces, dont wanna seek solace. i dont wanna know wots happening out there. why the heck should i be so bothered right? wot right do i have to be bothered? i never bothered about it in the first place right? you want me to wear a mask so that you can be happy? all i ever wanted to give to this stupid planet, is my stupid self. i'm typing from a point of rage. this dosent have to be here.. why is it here? so that everyone can see? why? i dont know my audience anymore. that knowledge faded me when my counter stopped working ever since i put up the enetation blogout. am i supposed to be addressing audience? don't be affected by wot i type tonight. wot am i saying, we all react. well, my disclaimer is that, im typing at the top of my hed. i have censored a few expletives that should have come out, but im not living for myself. i try not to. mebbe. so yeah, that's about all i censored. but in anycase, i feel volatile and unstable. there's too much noise these days.. (^_^)
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