live it up live it up
how ironic that after my perfect day of beer and buds, that once the clock went slightly after midnight, i dropped water onto my laptop whilst watching futurama. i noticed the keyboard not responding, and the screen slowly fizzle out, whilst literally, my life and her spark just poofed into a cloud of grey smoke. i don't know if it's gonna work when i go home, i can only pray. just when i was about to start applying for a particular job, this happens. just when i freed up space on my laptop so i can run my usb midi controller, this happens. i'm not one for dramatic irony or melodramatics, so why can't my life be met with peace?

in the meantime, lookout for redsportsTV, it's what's been keeping me busy and not finding myself in tubfulls of buttery mischief. yes, this is what i do.

Beer

What could possibly go wrong today?

banks for robbers
it's a little under one o'clock, and though i know the time and date below won't reflect the actual entry of this blog, it doesn't stop me much. time and tide waits for no man, it just keeps going on and on, trudging through our lives like a wayward locomotive, or on the rails depending on your own little take with life.

initially, i wanted to post something long, something nice.. but now i think it will suffice by telling you that i'm still alive but i'm rather sleepy, so that will be my priority for now. hope to type about some stuff soon, it's been a while, too long awhile. pen to paper, words to screen.

conversations and bright ideas
yuanheng on obese businessmen:

"clearly, success doesn't always go to their heads."

you should be so proud of yourself..

napkin man and his new hairstyle

relics

remember this? just had to remember what it was like before the mobile age and even moblogging..

Goodbye cruel world

On a trip to KL right now. See you kitty kats on saturday

polkda dot blood
i hate shaving accidents.

doing the things we love
life and all her swords could never cut thru this heart made of steel. isn't it mortifyingly horrifying when you cannot feel anymore? then you cannot use such bombastic words. being apathetic means you have the vocabulary of a garden slug.

wheee.. it's been awhile since i've had a hit of silly banter like that. you're right, i haven't been feeling much lately. i am a terribly emotional being, some would say it's both my strength and weakness at the same time, and everytime i retreat into bouts of insecurity, i choose not to feel, i cancel out everything and everyone around me and i super-calculate the distance i keep with people, because one inch closer and i could implode, or explode.. which ever is more volatile in that instant.

did something make me feel this way? maybe, but its usually an amalgation of dissatisfaction. am i feeling dissatisfied? somewhat, i started some part time work, but i feel like a loser because most of my friends have full time jobs and are making more money. i don't make that much, but i have more free time. but i don't exactly have very productive free time, but i really hope that changes soon. i want to write, i want to dance, i want to play music, i want to take photographs, i want to lose weight, i want to read, i want to catch up with friends.. but all i'm doing here is blogging incessantly to a nineteen or thirty a day readership. it really depends. it would be nice to have a larger audience, but then again i don't want this celebrity status thing. i can only try to be as real as hypertext on a white background.

there i've said it, and it's a struggle to live each day to the fullest, but maybe the trick is not trying too hard. anyhow, i thought i was rather funny yesterday:

"men and women are wired differently. men are wired the right way."

-p. anyone should know i'm not sexist, or at least not terribly sexist. but i do love the women in my life, and this is really just a tongue in cheek joke. no need to be uptight! why am i explaining myself? well, maybe there are first time visitors to this blog.

no cars go
this song is called no cars go by the arcade fire and i abso-fucken-lutely love it and this very bril video.

family ducks
i never realised. it's quite a beautiful picture, and so i choose my words carefully. i never realised just how much. do i start to put a value to these things now, then? sometimes the words just flow out, but today it's all measured. one millimeter to deep and it all falls apart. learning to live without you, learning to live. this blog is my space, and as black fills white, and activities fill time. i'm not alone and yet i feel alone. if only we didn't feel so much, perhaps we'd function slightly more, slightly better.

i've started some part time work, i'm wondering right now if this opens up the door to some other part time work. because i don't think i'm using my free time very productively, or maybe i'm not a very productive person. but you'll never find a better chill-out buddy.

ipod love
Originally uploaded by folkstar.

love.joy
i'll let this picture speak for itself, and i offer little justification for it. all i know is that i love you, and that i will not be ashamed of our relationship. the only downside is that you threw out all my old music and i will only love you on a manual basis and not a synchronised one.

flat tyre

flat tyre
Originally uploaded by folkstar.

sulk all you want
well, this picture pretty much sums up what i did the entire afternoon from about two forty five till four thirty. the nuts were bolted on so tightly that i was at a loss for a good half hour. i was moving the jack around, because i didnt know where i should set up, and everytime i wind it up or down, it takes me about fifteen minutes to get anything then.

finally i drove home, and with a little help, managed to get the nuts out. i drove home with a flat tire, good thing i was nearby.. because it's a very painful driving experience. well, the good thing is i've changed my first tire singapore, i shall not be helpless again, and i managed to get a decent photo out of it!