Wednesday, June 21, 2006

medicinal save the least
i was just having a write in my journal this afternoon, and since it's something i havent completed due to interuptions and it's not particularly embaressing, i just thought i might carry on slightly more on this space.

well, i suppose lately, with me graduating in a semester's time, it's got me thinking about where i stand amidst all this. and the failure of mediocrity is creeping its way into my system, which in fact i find filling my idle thoughts..

i'm an average bass player, average student, average production whatever, average writer, average son, average friend, average christian and so on and so forth. even if i'm not, that's how i feel.. like nothing just seems quite perfect. i don't know if it's possible to feel that way though, totally right as rain?

i'm struggling to remember the time i've ever felt that way, if in fact it is possible, or whether its something my imagination romanced upon.

something is telling me to not look in the direction of what i can and cannot do, but rather, just what God can do, and how he's the reason why the things i do and can amount to aren't just anything but mediocre.

but of course the difficult thing would be to actually stick your head out of the sand, because it's a big bad world out there, and ever so often we feel safe in our little mediocre as they may be.

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