Thursday, July 21, 2005

because far below, i can see the reflection on the water, but beneath the surface, all sorts of life is teeming in violent survival.
a decent days work for a decent day's wages. ahhh.. if only life were that simple. i guess it isn't. well, you know how it is with faith, and you believe that God is in control. but do you still believe when things really start spinning out of control? i guess the question that beckons, is where your faith is when the shite really hits the fan. all those prayers that you prayed for people who were going thru tough times, do you believe them right now when you own life smells like shite? because, if you don't believe it, you gotta pick yourself up. and sometimes, just maybe sometimes, we really are so far down the line that we can rescue ourselves, we can't pick ourselves up anymore, and when you're really lying there, bleeding from the gut and your knee caps have been blown off, your shoulder's been torn to shreds, and your eyeballs are fully ripped from your sockets, that you begin to wonder, do i need a miracle?

which is easier: to say, 'Your sins are forgiven,' or to say, 'Get up and walk'? But so that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins..." Then he said to the paralytic, "Get up, take your mat and go home." And the man got up and went home. When the crowd saw this, they were filled with awe; and they praised God, who had given such authority to men.

Matthew 9:5-8

i suppose God understands that while salvation is all we need, he is still the one, who will come through for us in this lifetime, till the time we are called back to him. even though we fear not death, because he has overcome the ultimatum of death, sometimes we lose sight of the end, and we begin to fear life. or take life, a little too easily. he can come through for you, he will come through for you if you allow him to, if you allow him to undo your mistakes, or as they say, forgive your sins.

God is control, but perhaps life isn't that simple. i'm starting to relearn that, God has allowed me to appreciate the simple things in life, the essence of love in the family amongst real friends, or in the things of communing alone with God himself, the pleasures of crafting a tune, and offering unto God. but i suppose as with our lot on this earth, it's not always about that. we've got bills to pay, responsibilities to fulfil, and 'lest we run away from them to pursue God (whom we have reduced to a god by the things we've made it out to be), when it is our lot, our talents, then we'd better not bury them into the ground.

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